(John
F. Gilman, M.D. writing in his diary.)
I have told Charlotte time upon everlasting that exercise
depends on her strength; and that food depends somewhat on her appetite, but
air, of course, she shall absorb all the time, having as much as she pleases.
And the room is quite fine – large windows, and a yellow color in the
wall-paper. What a trial it is to have a helpmeet who cannot perform her wifely
duties as homemaker. It reflects quite poorly on my reputation as a physician
with the populace of the town that Charlotte suffers from hysteria. Mary is a
comfort and a pleasure to have around the house in her stead.
She
has not been undertaking her furious scribbling, which at least is some
improvement. She is acting nearly deranged on occasions, however – that is
troubling. Prattling on about something about the “woman trapped within the
wall-paper” or some other such nonsense. I believe that more time in the
natural elements should do her good; and what is more, Robert agrees with my
assessment. Charlotte objects quite vehemently to this course of action, but
after all, we are trained doctors with her best interests at heart, and
naturally we know best.
Perhaps
leaving for Massachusetts will do her good, the quietude of the change of
scenery should quiet her nerves. The humidity of this wretched Southern climate
is beyond endurance, before the condescension and suspicion the local peoples
have of my profession as John F. Gilman, M.D. They will only require my services if one of
their number has injured himself in a reckless game of foot-ball. The last boy
didn’t last throughout the night, I have not slept in sixty-one hours. Presently
I shall go upstairs to fetch Charlotte and we will make arrangements to be off.
Much as I hate to lend credence to her absurd superstitions and fancies, there
is something about this estate which is lacking in the proper grandeur. It
makes me feel quite disconcerted. To top it all, Jennie has said something
about the wall-paper coming loose. Not that it is any of my concern, and I have
no intention of repairing it, as we are leaving on the morrow, but it smacks of
disreputable tendencies which will not reflect well on me. If the trip does not
help, or the following excursion to the esteemed Doctor Weir Mitchell’s
sanitorium, then I believe I have no choice except to place her in an
institution. Our carriage has arrived, so for now I shall conclude these
writings and continue them at a convenient time. I will go fetch Charlotte
henceforth.
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